Possession.

“Within the truth hides the lie... within the lie hides the truth.”

- Mukuro Rokudo, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!, Chapter 165

Down again...

This entry was created on Tuesday, April 8, 2008, at 11:40 PM.

Well today is not really goin well for me... today during chi lesson, had to made announcement to class for the bread of the world competition... ask ppl join, yujie tat guy say it bac to my face to tell me to own self join... kind of pissed off... i dont like to force urs to join, but if this is wat i get bac for forcing myself to work to as a ct rep... u can take the ct rep job if u wan.... Forgot to bring my econ lect notes also... forced to sit in front of lecture hall... verge of slping for the whole lecture... I also nearly lost my suona again... left it at the parade square bf morning assembly... sure get lost if i dont do something bout it... Then after tat, i went bac to mshsco for prac for the upcoming founders day concert... Saw the alumni uniform n it sux so terribly.... i rather wear the algae green china shirt then wear the glow in dark alumni shirt... I played terrible during prac... cannot blow a single note right at all... my own suona is failing me slowly... 3 more days till nyjco concert n a week till mshsco concert... i realli nd to buck up to get back wat i m used to be a year ago... At least i can see the backstage of the esplanade n also get a backstage pass too for the mshsco concert... or i wont play...

I cant believe wat i saw a while ago... i did not expect my heart to hurt so much. I thought i gave up .... but it is still hard for me to let go... if i ever did make an effort earlier ... will the situation be different from now....