Possession.

“Within the truth hides the lie... within the lie hides the truth.”

- Mukuro Rokudo, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!, Chapter 165

Life's Ups n Downs...

This entry was created on Sunday, January 31, 2010, at 1:10 AM.

HIhi... sry... was kinda tired from the hk trip so did not blog for quite a long time.... Anyway will conclude wat i did in HK! Basically, the last 2 days... was kinda slacky... woke up around 1-2pm for the last 2 days 25/1-26/1..... Then would eat abit of bun b4 goin to eat dim sum at some chinese restaurants...One below my house at 25/1.... One at Po Lam where my grandma like to go... Now i realise why some hk ppl are not fat despite they hv so much nice food.... They sometime only eat 1 Meal!.... Like they go eat high tea like crazy at 3-4pm.... n they dun eat anymore... like my grandma... but she still fat lol...

For dinner time, went to eat the same chinese restaurant at Po lam for hotpot with my eldest auntie n her family n my 2nd auntie... Ate a lot of beef n veg tat day... kinda scared i put on weight after the whole HK trip :P.... Talk with my uncle alot during the whole dinner time.... like tennis, life n stuff... Then ate dessert at a famous store nearby....

Oh yea, u noe i got this aunt who is the hk distributor of the famous ba gua store in spore... mei zhen xiang... see my family keep use this to get free food from the store... damn cheap skate haha.... but still haha...

On the last day 26/1... kinda pissed... went bac to s'pore with a shitty feeling... cause i felt my family is givin my sis a lot of freedom n authority... n i m like left out like shit... Forget bout it... Tat is why i cant stay still at my house....

27/1... Went bac to NYJC to see 0810 classmates.... and ask bout my sis appeal to nyjc... somehow she still got into Acjc... n she hate it there.... N BLAMES ME FOR IT?! Cause i make a casual comment sayin tat JC mite start around 9am... which mine did last yr... n her jc starts at 7.30am... so she hate the travelling time n wakin up early... I feel damn irritated bout it... n i still help her with her appeal despite my displease with her... Went to see CO mates also... saw new juniors from DSA n many ppl... they are preparing for the concert which is help in april... would be helpin to play zhong yin sheng cause there are too many suona juniors liao.... n not a single sheng player left except jessica... sad case sia... but i afraid i mite not be able to perform.. cause jus nice still in confinement in NS... now tryin to find a way to get a day off to help perform... Then went with my class peeps to eat at sumo house for dinner b4 playing arcade.... lost to james in jubeat :'(...

28/1... Went to orthopedic specialist at mt alvernia... N was given a depressin news... My congenital deformity at my spine disk... is actually quite serious... 1.5 yrs ago... another doctor said tat it was jus a small deformity where a small edge of my spine disk is missing... thus easy to cause disk slip.... but now this doctor said tat i actually lost 1/2 of the spine disk... causing the lower part of my back to be deformed.... n physio mite not able to cure it... to cure the pain... is to undergo a major surgery where they cut my spine n add new bones into it... side effects is tat my back will be stiffer n i cant be as agile as b4... he ask me to find another specialist for his opinion... one who is a spine surgeon... Once i listen wat he said... i was totally feelin shit... for the whole freakin day... i either be pain for life... or be as stickpole for life... my rest of the life feel damn shit already... Then went to many places after tat to escape this depressing feelin... to novena to eat lunch with my mum at hk cafe... to orchard to borrow a prince rebel team racket from far east shopping center... to city hall to look for new earphones n find the dance studio at SMU... WILL BE STARTING DANCIN FROM NXT MON ONWARDS!!! FOR THOSE WHO THINK I CANT DANCE, WATCH OUT :DDDD....

then to bugis to find the orange jacket n shoe i found in hk... but still to no avail... Then lastly to raffles place to find my uncle workplace tat i m supposed to work at ther from nxt mon onwards... but was kana rejected the last minute yesterday... sianz hv to find a new job again... will try to find a suitable job... to work for a month or so.... then to yck lastly to book tennis court for 29/1 cause their freakin hotline nv answer.... LIKE FOREVER!... so irritating....

29/1... Went to play tennis with RJ n james.... at yck tennis court... was damn hot tat day... kana sun burn on the face geez.... then went to eat at kopitiam "nearby"... Then went to amk to accompany rj return his library book... saw an old friend at the bus stop there... but i dont think she rmb me... cause nv say hi... Received a call from Queenie Wong bout my sis appeal... asked bout why she come ny despite enter acjc n other stuff.... hope she dont dig bout me from LKK... or else my sis will sure kana blacklisted.... :)....Then went bac to sch to help out CO again... many new juniors came... n make the whole suona group even bigger... n still no sheng haiz.... zhiwen came bac also jus to collect scores... Seems she has been working the past month...anyway ate dinner with the juniors till damn late b4 return home... There is another relationship tat mite develop in CO again... haha... lets hope it goes official... will not say much or else i will get killed :D....

30/1... today woke up early to send my grandma off.... she goin bac to KL to check up on my great grandma.... Then was hangin around thomsan plaza durin lunch time... My dad returned.... which kinda made the rest of the day kinda depressing again... cause he immediatly gave me the talk bout how i m stupid... Lazy... n not helpin my sis in her sch selection... N bout how my back pain is actually my fault for not sitting properly... well guess i will nv be rite in his eyes so i nv think his words are always rite either... Then went bac to far east shoppin center to return the racket... Then find my way to tanglin tennis court which is like a damn ulu place...to try out the new wilson blx racket n some babolat rackets organized by tanglin tennis school n TFN... Liked the feel for the six-one pro... n the pro drive gt roddick version... kinda like heavy rackets now... N met alot of pros there... n played with some of them... gained alot of experience there....

Then went to wheelock to buy slipper.... but vry limited options for my big size foot.... so went to heeren... which also hv limited options... so went to cine leasure which i finally found wat i wan... An orange Slipper :D bought it... I also found an orange bag which look damn cool also... will save money to try to buy it :DD... Then went to 313 to hmv to buy an orange headphone... ATH-ON300 by audio technica... not reali like to it... but it is quite gd for its price...will post the pics of the things i buy tml... Then went home

Recently... i had gone through a lot of thought bout my life... How i m goin to live with my back prob... A lvl results which i m not confident with... wat m i goin to do after i got my results... n stuff... even how i feel bout relationships... i thought of someone... but seeing how i m now... i m so not in the position to make any advancement... Her standards are so far away from me... Her studies, her family status, her personality, her looks... furthermore my terrible looks n incapability to open with ppl tat not close to me jus pulls me away from everythin... Wished i hv the courage to take the 1st step... i always loss the courage to do many things... thus makin me loss alot too... when i m in sec 4... jc1... n even now.... guess my lonely life continues...

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